Breaking Free from the Grip of the Past: A Revelation That Changed Everything

My past had me in a chokehold

I had a revelation recently that stung a bit, but I’m so grateful and relieved. It was like a weight lifted off my shoulders, and I finally understood what had been holding me back for so long.

During one of my therapy sessions, it hit me like a ton of bricks: my past had me in a chokehold. I was stuck in childhood trauma, regret, and the pain of wasted time in a long, toxic relationship. I had been caught up in people-pleasing, constantly trying to meet others’ expectations while neglecting my own needs. I had been so focused on everything that happened before that I couldn’t even think about the future. I was living life without structure, like “Gone with the Wind” — going wherever the wind blew, with no real direction or plan. I lacked purpose, and every decision I made was clouded by my past.

That was a painful realization, but it was also incredibly freeing.

The more I reflected, the more I saw how my fear of confronting the past had kept me stuck. I didn’t want to look at the trauma or the mistakes I’d made because facing them felt too painful. I avoided it for so long that I ended up living in this haze, just going through the motions of life without fully engaging. My past held me in place, and I couldn’t move forward until I truly let go.

In 2024, everything changed. I thank God for delivering me from my past — for giving me the strength to face, acknowledge, and release my wounds. But the…