It seems like God has been guiding me to get things in order over here. I’ve been struggling with how to move forward with The Haus of Self (T.H.O.S.), and I’ve been feeling stuck and confused. It’s particularly frustrating because I believe God called me to do this. While I know it’s not going to be easy, I also recognize that this state of anxiety around running the business is not from God.
In one of my blog posts, I shared how God revealed my purpose through a vision (you can read it [here] Despite receiving this vision, days turned into months, and I still felt stuck, which I hate. I started spiraling, beating myself up, getting nothing done. Imposter syndrome kicked in, doubt took over, and I began second-guessing if this was really what God called me to do.
I started praying intensely about this journey, not wanting to miss my mark. Then God had to check me. He reminded me that he called me to share my story, not start a business. He showed me where sharing my story would take me, and I got excited about the vision. My A.D.H.D. kicked in, and I tried to jump from Instagram posts to hosting retreats in Bali overnight, skipping one crucial part—the process.
There are many intricate steps before I can reach the retreat stage. It will happen; I know it will because He told me so. I need to chill, show up, do what He called me to do, and trust that just as He gave me the vision and part of the blueprint, He will provide everything I need in due time. We can neither skip nor rush the process.
I’ve realized that God’s timing is perfect. The anxiety I’ve been feeling stems from trying to control the process and outcomes on my own rather than relying on God’s plan. By trying to leap ahead, I missed out on the lessons and growth that come from taking each step deliberately and faithfully.
Moving forward, I will focus on embracing each step in this journey. I will continue to share my story authentically, connect with others, and trust in the process. I’ve started setting smaller, manageable goals and celebrating each win along the way. This has already begun to ease my anxiety and help me feel more aligned with God’s purpose for me.
I’m also learning to seek support and community. Surrounding myself with people of God who understand and support my vision is crucial. Whether it’s mentors, friends, or a faith community, having a support system helps keep me grounded and encouraged.
Lastly, I’m committing to continuous prayer and reflection. Staying connected to God through prayer helps me remain focused and reassured that I am on the right path. Reflecting on how far I’ve come and acknowledging God’s guidance in every step helps to build my faith and reduce doubt.
I’m excited about where this journey will take me, even if it can sometimes be confusing or challenging. Trusting in God’s timing and process, I know that everything will unfold as it’s meant to. For now, I am going to take it back to the basics. Thank you for following along and supporting me as I navigate this path. Your encouragement means more than you know, and I look forward to sharing more of this journey with you.
XO| Moeluvin
